Jordin Sparks makes me cry
January 15, 2008 at 3:35 pm | In Uncategorized | 7 CommentsI think today could be one of those days I’m being a huge baby? Why (you’re probably not asking yourself?” I don’t know why I’m acting that way, but I was driving into work this morning listening to our station here in town and the new Jordin Sparks/Chris Brown song “No Air” came on and I started crying. It was the feeling you get when curling up in the fetal position in a corner feels like the right thing to do, but I was driving. So I couldn’t. I don’t feel sad about anything. I’m over all that. So this kind of caught me off guard. I guess I was listening to the words in the song and I realize that I want someone to feel that way about me, but it seems like I find a way to blow it when there’s that potential.
Or maybe that’s not the case. I’m sure I’ve messed things up before. I’d be stupid to try and say that I didn’t. I think it’s because my long term ex told me what a bad girlfriend I was when we met up for drinks last week. I don’t know why I let this bother me, but I did. I don’t think I was ever horrible. Anyone can be hard to put up with sometimes; at least I thought they could. But when you hear that 95% of the problems in a relationship are your fault, it can really be bothersome. So will I ever be important enough to someone that they can’t breathe when I’m not around? I’m not sure I want that much pressure put on me, but I want it to be impossible to concentrate because I am on the brain. You know? Is that wrong of me? I don’t need 97 phone calls a day. 50 texts…maybe. I don’t need to be attached at the hip anymore. I really don’t think I’m as bad as some think I am. In fact lately I’ve been accused of not being clingy enough. So what am I supposed to do? Will I ever be that person who someone else can’t get off their mind? I really do hope so.
My sister and I hit the gym last night and I feel way better about life. I get the hugest knots in my shoulders and I’ve learned to just deal with them. When we were working out everyday before, my knots weren’t as bad. So I’m hoping that some time on the elliptical and lots of upper body work will make me feel better. And I want to start running again, so I have something to look forward to. We’ll see how that goes.
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for the first time, i felt like i can relate to you. wondering if someone really needs you, and stuff. i wonder that all the time. it’s nice to know that someone cares about you so much, they’re always on your mind. well, not ALWAYS. but, you know what i mean. eveeryone has a certain flaw. and, if whoever can’t deal with that. it’s not worth lingering over that person. have a nice day! ^_^
Comment by tealicious — January 15, 2008 #
Shannon all I can say is… I’ve been there. Maybe it’s the weather or hormones but I had that same day just last week monday. I was really really sad for no true reason. I mean sure life could be better and I have the normal share of lives troubles but nothing to bring me to that extreme. Then like you I started thinking… I’ve been divorce 2x. And the last one was 10 years and just ended in Sept. And I started feeling like a failure. Questioning me and what makes me so bad… The good thing is, it lasted only one day.. yes a full day but that was it. I woke up the next day a bit tired but feeling much better. So, Shannon…the morning will come and you will wake up feeling happier…or atleast less blue.
Comment by Evonne — January 15, 2008 #
Shannon you are a sweetheart!…You will be that person someone else can’t get off their mind. EVERYBODY messes up, and tell youR ex that she played a part in the break up too……
No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE…..
Comment by Mary Lou — January 15, 2008 #
i do not wish to get lambasted for what i am about to say/conclude…but i for the record think that shannon is NOT gay.
Comment by Craig — January 15, 2008 #
i do not wish to get lambasted for what i am about to say/conclude…but i for the record think that Craig needs to get a life!
Comment by Nicole — January 15, 2008 #
Shannon
Love your singing parts (too funny). Hope you have a better day. Dont cry sweety! Would like to sign up for the spooning part…do you like old dudes (44)? probably not but love you anyway!!!!!!!!!!!!
Comment by Barry — January 16, 2008 #
Shannon.. you are a wonderful and beautiful person.. who cares what your ex thinks… it’s going to be her loss.. you will make someone very happy one day.. and if you ever just need someone to hold you and spoon you on your couch, i’m there.. holla..
Comment by Shane — January 18, 2008 #