Shanon’s Blog

I’m over my stupid crying over stupid Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown singing that “No Air” song together. I heard it again after the show was over and I cried one more time. Then I was done. What’s the point? What good does it do me to cry over some song the nobody had ever sang to me, has probably never related to me, and just has no specific meaning to me? So I’m done with it. I’m done being upset and ready to move on. Who wants to be with someone who drives down the road as close to the fetal position as they can get crying to a Jordin Sparks song? I wouldn’t. So there.

Yesterday I went from feeling like a 13 year old to a 30 year old in a matter of minutes. I felt like a 13 year old when I bought Proactive because my face is just gross. It is so incredibly broken out like it’s never been before. Is it stress or am I bathing in Crisco and forgetting to wash it off? I’m not really sure, but it’s nasty. Maybe it’s because I rubbed face paint all over myself on Sunday during the football game and now my face doesn’t know what to do. I dunno. But I need to do something because I cannot stand to wear enough concealer to cover it all up, but it’s unbearable.

Then I went to work out with my sister at a different gym than we usually go. It was a WAY different crowd. My normal gym is full of beautiful people. I’m not gonna lie. I love being around pretty people. Even if they’re prettier than me I think it makes me feel validated or something. Call me shallow. I don’t care. I just like being with good looking people. Anyway, the gym we went to yesterday was not so full of pretty people. Maybe not even a quarter full of them.In fact maybe not even an eighth full. But they were motivated and were working hard, which was good to see. We did arms, legs, and abs. I cannot stand doing legs and abs. Arms are super easy, but the other two arent’t. But I felt accomplished having done a complete workout even though I hated every second of most of it.

Anyway, when we were pulling up to the gym, I got a call from Al’s mortgage lady. I’ve decided that I’m moving into a house in May. So now I have to decide if I want to rent or buy. From the looks of it, buying is cheaper and is an investment that will pay off. I pay enough rent for my current apartment that it may be cheaper to move into a house than it is to stay there. Besides that (and the biggest motivator) Oprah needs a yard. Taking her out and letting her chase the four wheeler in the field behind my apartment is great, butt it’s not enough. SO I need a house. I don’t know where, but I’m moving. I find out today if I can be approved for a loan. I’m not getting my hopes up at all, but at least I can say I tried. I may have to rent for a year, build up my credit, and then buy. It’s a HUGE decision, but I’m ready to be done with apartments. I love where I live, but it’s time to grow up and move. And yes, I will take my Proactive with me.