Shanon’s Blog

Guess who isn’t going to be buying a house anytime soon? ME. The loan approval was a disaster. Turns out that my credit score is 3 points below what’s needed to get a decent amount to buy a house. So I’m at a loss. I will still move in May, but it will be into a rental place. And yes, Keith is going with me. Now I’m buckling down and starting my life of financial responsibility. I’ve got to work on paying off my credit cards and get my car down to 10 payments left. That is 20 months away, so I will have to get WAY ahead. So what does that mean for me?

1. I won’t be getting the Jeep I wanted. At least not for 20 months
2. I won’t be buying rounds for everyone at the bar anymore.
3. I don’t have to be out of my apartment constantly. I have to find entertainment…cheap entertainment…at home
4. I probably won’t invest in the couch I want until after I’m in a home I am buying, which sucks cause I want a new one BAD.

So, with these things being said…now I have to stick to them. I’m the worst at sticking to something sometimes. I forget. I have become the most forgetful person I know. I have been to my dog’s vet’s office no less than 10 times and I swear it took me 30 extra minutes of driving around within 2 miles of the place before I finally remembered how to get there. I’m not a stupid person and I used to have a memory unlike anyone I had ever seen, but not anymore. Maybe it’s a lack of sleep. I don’t know.

So my friend has known this guy since November and now she’s moving…with her kids…to the other side of the country to “start fresh.” When she first mentioned this to me on Saturday the move would happen within a year. Then on Monday she said it would be by the end of the month. Then yesterday she said she’s leaving by Tuesday. Really? And when she asked me if I wanted to see them before they left and all I said was “yup” she got mad. I don’t support this move. I hope it works out. She is my friend. But I think it’s a bad, rushed idea. But I’ve done dumb things before so who am I to judge. I just don’t get pulling your kids from school mid-year for something so abrupt. But she didn’t ask for my understanding so I don’t feel too bad for not having it. That’s really all I have to say about that. I’m sure writing this doesn’t help the situation, but I don’t do long distance very well, so in essence I’m losing a friend.

Oh, and by the way, I’m so over the Jordin Sparks song “No Air.” I’ve grown to love it and embrace the fact that I want my life to be like that. So now Jordin has changed my life. I know what I want because of her, so now I have to work towards getting there. SO thanks, Jordin, for hopefully inspiring years of smiling to come. Years of smiles are worth a few tears, so I’ll deal with it. Thanks Jordin. You’re my hero. Now all I need is someone who will sing the song to me to really make it hit home. I’m working on it.