Who’s an insecure moron? This girl right here
March 10, 2008 at 2:58 pm | In Uncategorized | 4 CommentsCan I just erase the majority of this weekend from my mind and from ever having happened? I’ve always known that I could be a total ass, but I didn’t know how far I could take it. Well, this weekend I proved it.
Friday was a good day for the most part. I think I reached my peak of exhaustion, though, because I laid down for a short nap at 7:15PM and woke up again at 11AM on Saturday. I set my alarm for no less than 4 times during the nap and I kept waking up long enough to reset it and go back to sleep. I apparently even had a conversation with Keith that I can’t remember. So there’s really not much more I can say about that. I slept. Big deal, right?
I start the next part of this not wanting to talk about all this so much, but I have to be honest even if it makes me look awful. This will for sure. But I have to deal with it. So here goes nothing.
Saturday was a testament to my being a moron. An apologetic moron, but moron nonetheless. I’d love to come up with a hundred excuses for my being an ass, but what’s the point. There is no excuse for totally going crazy on people because I can’t deal with stuff, especially when there’s really nothing to deal with. I wish I knew where to start but I don’t and I have to be careful not to reveal too much about the other people involved. So I won’t even get into the disaster of a story. Just know that I walked away looking like an ass. Period. And, as crappy as it’s going to feel to face my being an ass, I have every intention of apologizing to the third party I went off on. I was wrong so I have no question in my brain as to whether or not I should apologize. I’m just so stupid for getting myself in the position to have to.
Anyway, I feel defeated all over again so I’m gonna stop now. I’ve got a lot of introspection to do and then there’s this work thing, too.
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you think too much and place and unnecessary value on peoples opinions…you also agonize too much…have you ever seen Chuck Norris apologize???…’nuff said.
Comment by craig — March 10, 2008 #
looking like an “ass” is KEWL:
http://shadowriders.net/attachments/ASS.jpg
Comment by craig — March 10, 2008 #
It seems that the “adult” thing to do, is own up to your actions and you are. That’s good Shannon. No harm done though, you’re reacting as any normal person would who acted like an ass for no good reason…you’re embarassed. It happens.
Chin up and remember, if you don’t want a repeat of this, which seems to occur on a regular basis, we all have those “filters” in our head for a reason.
Comment by Melissa — March 10, 2008 #
I think we all feel like an “ass” at some point and its not so much the little things that you couldnt deal with as much as those things that may have be hidden that caused the overall reaction. Not everything is an open book and sometimes you have to look deeper to find the answers your wanting for the why’s.
Atleast you did what you felt was right and apologized to the individual/s. You could have just blown it off and let it go. I would think that says a lot about what your about.
Defeat is something someone feels/does when they have given up. I don’t see anywhere in your post that you have given up, otherwise whats the point of apoligizing?
Anyway, I feel defeated all over again so I’m gonna stop now. I’ve got a lot of introspection to do and then there’s this work thing, too.
Comment by NorthrnLights — March 12, 2008 #