Shanon’s Blog

I knew yesterday would be another interesting day when I didn’t wake up until 15 minutes after I should’ve left the house. But I didn’t know how interesting it would be.

I didn’t sleep but for about an hour on Tuesday night because my mind wouldn’t stop. So by 8PM on Wednesday night my head was ready to explode in a million pieces. My sister came over to see me because I needed her. She brought an ice cream cake with her but I couldn’t indulge because food was not my friend yesterday. And, even though I’m light headed and could easily pass out right now, I don’t want anything. I guess it’s my protest to those who say I’m too thin. I’m gonna get thinner.

I’ll be honest. I promised I wouldn’t blog about what’s going on in my life and I intend to keep that promise because the caring too much continues. I know that not telling about what’s happening goes against everything I’m supposed to do, but it’s out of my control and too many people could get hurt or made fun of or whatever. So I will just not say anything until I can’t not say anything anymore.

With that being said I got nothing. It’s funny how one emotion can comsume a person to the point that I’m consumed. It should be easy just to switch gears and deal with it at an appropriate time. No crying at work or while the lady at Guerros stares at me. No tears on the bread isle at Wal Mart. No locking myself in the green room here at the studio because I’m a huge baby. Gotta stop all that.

Anyway, I won’t bring you guys down with me so I’ll just stop now until I have happier things to say. So there you go.