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May 14, 2008 at 3:25 pm | In Uncategorized | 5 CommentsIt’s almost time to go to Mexico and I can’t wait. Can’t wait. I may have the worst tan lines in all eternity but I don’t care. I just want to be gone from this city. Keith is already making plans for when I’m gone because he loves it when I ‘m gone. He teases me and says that he jumps up and down naked on my bed when I go out of town, but I’m pretty sure I’d smell naked Keith on my bed if the two had ever met. I might hook up a webcam in my room just in case, but I dunno. It’s more of a pain than it’s worth probably.
It was a really long weekend and I don’t think I’ve blogged since last week because I’m a slacker. Actually I’ve just been so busy with the show and tired when it ends that I just haven’t done it. I know tired isn’t a good excuse, but my sleep schedule is so far off …I’m just tired and don’t want to do much after 10AM. But anyway we went to San Antonio for Freddy to open at MixFest. We went on a tour bus which was pretty nice. It was way better to have a bunk to sleep in than be crunched up in a car or plane.
You know what I wish? I wish that I had the confidence that JC has. Even if it is misguided, which his is for the most part, I could fake it til I’ve felt it. I’m trying this method with my social awkwardness. I know I’m weird when it comes to being around people and I don’t do myself any favors by being painfully shy, but I am. I have such a fear of rejection, especially rejecting me to my face, that I’d rather stand there with my hands in my pocket and look at the ceiling fan than put myself out there and face being disliked. Ugh. I don’t want to think about it.
But you have to admire someone who thinks that they could be the best at anything, much less everything. I love this about him, but don’t tell him I said that please.
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Hey Shanon, sorry you have been so busy with the show but I’m so glad that the show came to San Antonio. I was there and met you….and after reading your blog just wanted to let you know I am the same way. I was so shy and didn’t know what to say when I met you. I am such a big fan but now that I have met you I am much more of a fan than I ever was. There were so many things I wanted to say to you that I just couldn’t find the words. You are so beautiful and sweet. You made me feel comfortable around you so maybe you do have more confidence than you think. Luv ya girl keep up the hard work!!!! ~LauraR
Comment by Laura — May 14, 2008 #
Man, I’m the same way in a crowded room. It’s so hard to correct without alcohol too, isn’t it? Some have not heard me talk much at all unless I’ve had a few. So it’s easy for people to peg our type as alcoholic… oh, woe is us.
Comment by Leigh — May 14, 2008 #
Hey Shannon….Have fun in Mexico, you deserve it! And I’m sure your tan lines will be fine by then. I just dont see you being shy around people. I wish you were more involved with the show on air and not so much behind the scenes. Kelly is sooooo jealous of you for some reason. Great job though!!!
Comment by Chase — May 15, 2008 #
The last time I was in a really awkward situation where I didn’t know anyone I told them I was a cruise ship director. It just came out. But it did allow for about 30 min of interesting conversation. Until I told them I was joking. And left.
Comment by Roxy. — May 15, 2008 #
I AGREE I THINK KELLY IS JEALOUS OF YOU 2! I THINK SHE IS JEALOUS OF EVERYONE HAHA! IM PROUD OF YOU AND THINK YOU DO A WONDERFUL JOB FOR THE SHOW! THANKS FOR ALL YOUR HARD WORK!
Comment by KATY — May 15, 2008 #