Shanon’s Blog

Is it July 3^rd yet? You can always tell when our vacation time is coming up because it’s harder than ever to crawl out of bed every morning. No matter how much I love this job and the people I work with, it’s so hard to make myself get up in the morning. I hit snooze 4 times this morning and got to work about 10 minutes later than normal. Which isn’t too bad, but it kind of throws me off a tad when I’m not passing the 7-11 by the time my radio clock says 4:13. This morning my clock said 4:17, so I just sped up a tad bit and made it not too late.

This weekend was one of those where I went out too much, probably, and didn’t sleep enough. It was a horribly long week last week and I was pretty much crawling up my stairs by Friday. So I needed a nap bad on Friday, but since I actually had time to take one, I couldn’t sleep. I should’ve been in bed early that night, but I went out instead. Kinsey and her friends met up with us and we danced and had a lot of fun. I sent my last text message of the night at 2:37AM…that puts me awake for a horribly long time. My appetite is non existant and I had a few drinks, so I was out when we got home. I felt horrible on Saturday, but I knew I was going out again that night so a little bit of Wendys was necessary.

I met up with Mackenzie and Christy and some of their friends for dinner and drinks. I shouldn’t have eaten again, but all of the sudden I was hungry and had to try a deviled egg and a chicken leg sandwich. I think I’m cursed when it comes to being at places with great food and horrible service. This place had the potential for greatness but the service was AWFUL. I probably won’t be SCENE there again. But if you have plenty of time to be neglected and wait with no drink or food for extended periods of time, you should be SCENE here.

My dad did read the blog I wrote for him on Father’s Day and I think he liked it. He came up and hugged me and said that he loves me and always will. I went over and saw him on Saturday because he works on Sunday. We rode motorcycles and ate hamburgers and just enjoyed hanging out. I was lame though and went home a little after 10 and crashed hard. I guess I needed it. Then it was my moms birthday on the 20^th. I got her the wrong birthday gift (which I have exchanged) and bought a mud pie for her from Baskin Robbins. She loves those and I think her birthday is the one time a year she gets one. I need to just get her one on a random day to let her know that I was thinking about her and that she deserves the simple pleasures every now and then.

I’m trying to take steps back and look at things outside of myself for a change. I hope that makes sense. Try and get past my initial reaction to what’s happening. Not instantly get pissed if I don’t get what I want when I want it. I guess the simple way to put it would be “there’s more to you than me.”  I’m not gonna lie I still want to be top of mind and made a priority, but I am learning to understand  that maybe it’s ok to let my feelings be put aside for a little while and let others focus on their own. It’s hard. I admit that.  But I think I’ve figured out that I need to step back every now and then to think about where another person is coming from. It helps me, too, because I’m forced to see that maybe I’m not the reason for the bad mood. Maybe I’m not what they’re thinking about when they’re not smiling. So I think in the long run if I keep working on this not being so selfish thing it will be good for everyone.

I think all in all things are good right now. My stress level is pretty high, but that’s normal for me. My boat doesn’t run and my dad’s truck broke down when I pulled the boat up to my apartment to try and start it. Last weekend was a bad one for break downs all around, but we got through it.

And, again, I know I suck at keeping the blogs updated. Things are so crazy busy around here lately and I’ve not made time. That’s the short version of life since Father’s Day. Thanks for reading!