Shanon’s Blog

I’m trying to make goals for myself, but I’m having a hard time with it. Michelle was listening to our interview with Nastia Luikin last week and heard her say that it’s a good idea to make goals for yourself. Both long and short term ones…so that you have a definite reason for doing what you do every day. So, last night we were laying there talking about our goals and I realized that I kind of live a lame existence because coming up with goals is difficult for me.

Short term would be go to the grocery store this week. I haven’t been in forever and need to make the trip., but I hate grocery shopping, so I never do it. I normally live off of sandwiches and salad, but lately its been a lot of Eatzi’s salads, Subway, and Boston Market. It’s getting to be expensive and I need to save that money to buy a cool new car in November of 2009. I want to get a nice car with real chrome wheels instead of those plastic cover thingys, so I better start saving more and spending less.

I want to read the Four Agreements because Kidd and Kellie have said its an amazing way to come up with rules to live by. I’ve tried reading it before, but can’t get through page 7. So, I’m going to sit down and just do it and pray that it makes some kind of sense. If it doesn’t, I will invest in the Cliffs Notes.

I also want to break my Brick Breaker record. So far I’ve only gotten to like 6,000 points, but I’m pretty sure I’m good enough to get at least 7,000.

I want to have at least $10,000 in my savings account by Christmas of 2009. So far I’ve got like $250 in that account, so we will see how that goes.

I also want to be able to look in the mirror while I’m naked and have one or two good thoughts cross my mind instead of all the negative, gross ones. So we started working out on Friday and pulled off three days in a row and we’re going back today to learn free weights. I’ve not been really sore from the workouts so far, so I’m wither in way better shape than I give myself credit for, or I’m not pushing it enough. I feel much better about life when I leave, but I’d kind of like to feel something from it the next day. So Steve is going to the gym with us to show us some free weight stuff before they go back home to Slidell.

It was a good weekend because I did get to see Steve and Tammy, but they were here because they had to evacuate because of Gustav. They literally said goodbye to their home that they already rebuilt after Katrina and put as much stuff as they could fit in her Accord and his Titan and drove for 11 hours to get here. We hung out some on Sunday night at the lamest, least happening place in town. Then last night they made chicken gumbo and BBQ shrimp and we all ate outside. Steve was just here in June, but I’ve not seen Tammy since New Years. So it was good to get to hang out with her some. It was so depressing though because while we were at a bar hanging out, she wanted to get to their friends house to watch the weather channel so they would know if they still had a home. How surreal would that be? Not knowing if it all would be perfectly intact or if it would be total destruction or what would happen. Luckily it was not that bad this time and they have a home to go back to. They didn’t even lose electricity, thank goodness. But they have their house in evacuation mode and it will stay that way until November when hurricane season ends. They’ve got pictures off the wall and clothes all stored in the front room. Can you even imagine living that many months of your life not knowing? Not knowing if you have to stay in another city for a couple days or weeks or if you will end up putting the down payment up for a new house? I’m not that brave and I cannot empathize with those who are. I won’t even try to pretend that I can, so there’s that.

First thing this morning we called my roommate because I’ve not seen him much this weekend AT ALL and I was seriously worried about him. I didn’t see him get up to use the bathroom or anything. I yelled at him, knocked on his door, texted him, called him…nothing. I just cannot relate to not getting out of bed all day long. I felt like crap yesterday after I slept until noon, so I don’t get how he could be ok with doing absolutely nothing all day long. He didn’t get up on Friday and slept all day Sunday and Monday. I’ve tried inviting him to the gym with us or to dinner or to the bar or ANYTHING to get out of bed and out of the apartment. But he always says no or like he will meet us later, but then he never shows up. It’s really and truly bothering me these days because it’s not good for him. I’m used to him not being the most motivated person outside of his job, but this is all new and I don’t know what I should do for him. That makes me feel like the worst friend ever. Granted, he has to make up his own mind to change the way he’s living his life because not I or anyone else can force him to change and I’m not going to waste my time forcing my opinions on him when it’s not going to motivate change, so I’m lost. It’s almost like I should grab his hands and drag him down the stairs and into my car, but that’s not my job. I guess all I can really do is let him know that I’m here if he wants to talk  and that I realize that SOMETHING is going on with him and that I hope he sees the same sometime soon.

Well, I actually made notes of a bunch more stuff to blog about, but I don’t want to blow it all today. So, get ready for more compelling stuff tomorrow. At least I hope the word “more” fits.