Shanon’s Blog

I found out that another friend of mine is pregnant yesterday and this one Is having twins. She lives in California and is due in March and will be moving back to town because it’s been a rough pregnancy. I was shocked to hear about this one because she’s already got two kids who are almost grown and ready to go out on their own. I didn’t know they were trying to get pregnant, so I was really caught off guard by this text. So, now there are 4 babies due between now and March. When it rains, it pours, I guess. Now I might need an SUV and a car seat instead of just the car seat. Or two car seats. Since there will be twins.

Keith is out of town and the apartment is so quiet, it’s a little scary. I even slept with the light on last night because I’m not used to being by myself. I don’t mind it, though. Yesterday I could barely hold my eyes open by the end of our Monday meeting, so I went home and took a nap. No talking, TV, doors opening or closing. Nothing. Just his dog barking for a little while and that was it. Keith texted me later last night and asked me if I missed him. I told him not really, but maybe I should’ve said yes. Or kind of. But that would’ve been a lie and I don’t usually lie like that. Why bother? He knows I love the quiet and that I can walk around the apartment after my shower and not worry about putting on pants until I’m ready. He will be home today, so I’m gonna rush home and take in the quiet while I can.

90210 is on again tonight and I’m also pretty happy about that. I feel like last night was a bust because of the rain. Kickball was supposed to have started and we even went to the park early to play tennis before the games. But as soon as we pulled up to the park it started to rain and I wasn’t about to get rained on, so we went and ate dinner instead. I had Eatzi’s salad which could be the best salad in the entire world. I love it. And we watched E! Cutest Child Stars or something like that on TV. I didn’t watch the whole thing. I think Leo DiCaprio was the last child star I saw. It sucks to live so far away from the person I’m dating because I have to include like 30 minutes into the night plans for the commute. It’s really not that bad of a drive except for when you really don’t want to go and knowing that 30 minutes on the road is ahead of you can suck the life out of you.  But we manage to make it work and that makes me happy.

Have you ever had a person who genuinely doesn’t like you even though you’ve done nothing to deserve their contempt? I know I have a tendency to not be that nice of a person sometimes and I’m sure that some of you are saying “what goes around comes around” or “karma’s a b…” Whatever. Say what you want to say. I don’t care. I will admit when I do something to someone to justify their not liking me, but this one I don’t get. And it’s uncomfortable enough that I’m pretty sure that it makes other people around us uncomfortable because I don’t know how I’m supposed to act. Do you kill them with kindness? Do you ignore the nasty looks? I know what the issue is and I know that I’ve done nothing to instigate it. It’s a mixture of insecurity and jealousy and there’s really nothing that I can do to put those feelings at ease, especially when I have done nothing to bring them on. It’s just awkward and I normally would blow this person off and accept the fact that I cannot change their insecurities, but it’s affecting people around me and I don’t like that at all.

Today I’m going to work out because I feel gross having done nothing yesterday. So I’m on it. Is it possible to be toned and pure hotness by spring? That’s my goal and this time I’m actually doing something to achieve the goal. I’m just saying…