Snickers

April 24, 2008 at 3:58 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | 6 Comments

I get stressed out sometimes and need to find some release. For me the release is cleaning. Not just dusting the shelves and loading the dishwasher, I mean full on can’t walk in my apartment without being overwhelmed by bleach cleaning. So I did that yesterday because I just felt anxiety and nothing else was going to bring me back down to even. And I’ll be honest. I overdo it. If you walk into my apartment the day after you’d never know it because it never seems to stay clean, but I swear I’m weird about having a clean place to live. Kidd accuses me of never taking a shower, but I do every day and I insist on a clean tub. Which is a pain in the butt because I have a garden tub and I always get bleach all over the clothes I clean in leaning over the side. I’ve ruined so many pairs of sweat shorts to bleach stains. And then I forget what rag I used to clean with the bleach product and I accidentally wash it with my regular towels and stuff…and then I get big bleach spots on the regular stuff, too.

Today JC and I are going to a school to host a talent show that’s a Kidd’s Kids fundraiser. JC says we have to entertain in between the acts. Why am I nervous? I thought I’d just kinda stand there and talk to the kiddos and stuff. I do like to call myself an entertainer (but that totally doesn’t mean that I am one), so I’ll get over it. I’m just a tad nervous now.

My road to good health is going well so far. I had steamed veggies and string cheese for dinner last night. But then I made cookies, but I only had one. I’m so hormonal and I can tell because that’s the only time I crave sweets. It’s especially weird because sometimes I have to have a Snickers bar, but I don’t too much like chocolate or nuts. I can always tell when “it’s” coming because of what I crave. And it’s the worst because I already feel fat and gross but if I don’t feed my cravings it’s all I can think about. Have you ever spent the day and every other thought was a Snickers wrapper? Who wants to live like that? Not me.

That’s pretty much all for the moment. I will try and do a better job of blogging and hopefully next time it will be a little more interesting. I guess we will see.